Keri kong maligo magisa. No need para sabunin ng iba! [XD]
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I was hoping and PRAYING for this break! As in SOBRA.
In fact, medyo nag hysterical nga ko when i didn’t get an important text from our Grad School. Fortunately, na late lang pala. Buti na lang. Baka naglaslas na ko ng pulso kung nagkataon.
I realized mahirap palang maging genuinely happy for others while you are on very low morale for not having the same faith. And, there are people who tend to be naive on that matter.
Kailangan mo pang magsalita. Actually, there’s nothing wrong with it, the problem is, ma-stimulate lang yung nararamdaman mong kabiguan dahil kailangan mong i-open up na you Failed.
Nevertheless, nakaintindi naman sya, and the important thing is, WE BOTH PASS.
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Now, after all those nerve wrecking, emotionally draining, and pee eliciting moments, the real pain in the ass comes.
The what’s next?
The what will i do now?
The crying times and the goodbye bitches and assholes moments?
Well sadly, that’s a fact, i cant have it all, and more often than not, all great things come with some price...
Come to think of it, things will be worth it... i hope so.
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[PRETENDING TO BE WORKING]
I have been working at the LGU for 2 years and 6 months. Ito na ang humulma sa kalagayan kong propesyonal. Now, no wonder, bakit ganito pa rin ako. Modesty aside, mabagal naman talaga ang pagunlad sa gobyerno. Lulumutin ka na bago ka pa maakyat sa susunod na pwesto. Unless, you belong to some politically powerful and influential families.
I started pretty much like a neophyte. Mabait. Masunurin. Masipag at pabibo pa. But then, if you’ll be like these for the entirety of your stay at the LGU, lalamunin ka lang nila ng buhay. Kaya ayun, pinilit kong magkasungay. And eventually, humiyang ako sa pagiging PASAWAY.
So as not to elaborate further on this matter, naging MEDIOCRE ako when it comes to work [period]
But i guess, GOD really loves me, despite my performance, I still got an ITEM. Which give me the security to pursue my masteral degree. That GOD, has always a plan. Medyo pasasabikin ka lang nya, and when the time comes na mas magiging significant yung BLESSING nya, saka nya ibibigay!
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[BALIK ISKOLAR?]
It took me a while to decide and pursue my masteral. Nakakatamad kasi magisa. Kaya nung si ofismeyt eh feel din magmasteral, go na!
We took MS ENVIRONMENTAL SCIENCE. Something that he is advantage of na since yun yung undergrad nya. But anyway, can relate naman ako dahil same foundation with my undergrad.
My problem now is, how can i cope up with my over growing financial needs. Mahal na ng tuition then have to travel pa every week. Nakakadugo ng bulsa.
Sabi ko nga, Nasasalat man kami sap era, yumayabong naman ang aming kaalaman. At okay yun.
It was nice to be back in UP. Parang feeling ko naiistimulate muli yung utak ko. CHALLENGING!
Unfortunately, my very unstable emotional state always gets in the way. In simple terms, ang pagtotoyo ko ay talaga namang nakakawindang. Pero, nakaraos naman. [sana]
One thing, you should prioritize yourself. Dahil may instances na people may not return the favors na ibinibigay mo sa kanila. In fact, baka nga hindi nila napapansin yun at naaapreciate. May time na sarili lang nila iniisip nila. Sabagay, bakit nga naman nila iisipin yung iba? Malamang, iiwan at iiwanan ka lang nila.
I never experience it with people whom i treat very special. Kung gayon, i thank the 5 special friends i have during my undergrad, they are not just my batchmates, nor classmates, they are my true friends and kin [ Aissa, Cynthia, Kim, Mharra and Rody... thanks gurls]
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[SWITCHED ON/OFF FRIENDS]
I got to say, mas naging makulay ang buhay kaibigan ko for the past 2 years and 6 months kesa sa kung anu man. At syempre, kasama na rin dito yung pagtibok ng letcheng puso sa kung sino mang espesyal na nilalang. And, it was the culprit of all the mess that had happen to me. But nevertheless, i realize who are my true friends and how true can be to them.
We were thirteen. Tapos nakahati at nakawatak-watak. For sure they are putting all the blame on me. They have the very right. Opinion nila yun. I HAVE MY OWN. But one thing i am sure of at kahit saan ko dahil argument, tatama ako. Its TWO-FOLD. Meaning LAHAT MAY KASALANAN!
So much on that.
Nabuo NUKNUKAN. Sobrang saya. Kahit nagkakatoyoan, nagkakatampuhan. OKAY PA DIN KINABUKASAN. What’s good about the group is, pinaguusapan what went wrong. Everyone has their own say. If may gasuhan, may limitations. Marunong makiramdam. May UNAWAAN.
Everyone has their own SHARE OF MOMENTS. Kahit lagi kong namomonopolize. SYEMPRE, ITERESANTE ang ISTORYA KO.
Kahit lagi kami nakaCREDIT CARD dahil PURITA kami. SUPER SAYA.
Kahit sa BAHAY-BAHAY lang venue namin. SUPER SAYA.
Kahit Sardinas at itlog na pula lang ang ulam namin. SUPER SAYA.
Kahit Beer lang at Chitchitrya ang tinitira namin. SUPER SAYA.
Ang importante, lagi kaming magkakasama at, iniintindi ang isa’t isa.
Sila ang naging Sandalan ko sa mga sandaling Hinang-hina ako at mainit ang chorva ko sa ASAR.
Pagkasama ko sila, tanggal TOYO at DRAMA ko.
Kaya nga sa pagsuong ko sa bagong hamon sa buhay ko, susubukan kong MAKITA at MAKASALUMUHA sila kahit isang beses isang linggo.
TEARY-EYED NA KO. T_T
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[THE EFFING FUTURE]
Now, with the scholarship in place, i have to leave the LGU for a while. STUDY LEAVE muna DRAMA ko. Pero for good naman eh. [sana lang talaga]
If im gonna look at the brighter side, babalik muna ko sa FAMILY ko. Bonding muna and i’ll be able to help them in my own little ways. Lalo na that my MOM will be losing her work and will venture as well into a new OBSTACLE [charot]
And, probably, makakapagconcentrate ako sa sarili ko.
This will be time to make myself a priority. Nakaline up na gagawin ko. Sana talaga magawa ko sila lahat.
I am very optimistic. I KNOW I WILL.
Sigurdado may mga ODDS, pero kayang-kaya ko sila...
Marami namang tao sa paligid ko para tulungan ako...
HAIST. SHIT! KERI KO TO!lalo na't may bagong LOOK ako! :D
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